April 2010
Little.. Social breakdown.
So stressed out. I need a break from life. I want to be isolated, into a room where I can only hear my thoughts. I want to be in the dark so I can’t be distracted with my eyes. I want my ears to zone out the rest of the world so I won’t hear anything that would catch my attention. I my skin numb so I won’t feel anything luxurious to get me thinking about it.
I want it okay...
Day 34.
I hate saying “Goodnight.”
Ugh.. I hate how I need sleep to function properly. I’ve been doing some progress with my book report, but the progress is so slow, it’s ridiculous. I have to make up for it tomorrow. I need to work like crazy. Anyways, I hate saying Goodnight you. It makes me realize that I can’t talk to you for the next five hours. I guess every time...
I know I sound annoying, but I miss you so fricken much.
Day 33.
Oh noo!! My phone is breaking. It’s like watching a puppy that has no hope in living trying to hold on to it’s dear life. Wow.. I just started tearing up when I imagined a puppy.. Gah.
Even though life has been going pretty good and stuff, I can’t help but have some negative things running through my mind. Of course, these things won’t affect my actions/moods/life. But...
Day 32.
Damper in my life.
Gah. Why can’t I focus? Why can’t I get anything done? Why am I always distracted by something? I need to buckle down. I know my priorities, and I won’t let anything get in the way of that. But even though I know my priorities, that doesn’t mean I can’t make new priorities. x) I felt really bad today because I feel like I annoy people. But...
Day 31.
I suck at following through with plans.
BOO.. I typed out a blog, and pressed the refresh button. FAIL! ROFL. It was a short blog anyways.
I promised to do all of my homework yesterday so I can spend the whole day reading today. Kinda failed that. Whoops. I didn’t even start reading Grapes of Wrath yet. Oh well, I know I can do it. My iPod was being horrible last week and erased...
Post 30.
Can’t help but smile.
After all these countless hours of procrastination, I didn’t start my book report. But to be honest, I don’t really care. These countless hours have been spent on things that made me smile. I don’t regret it. At all. Sometimes I wished that time just slowed down so I can enjoy life, but if life slowed down, these weeks would be nothing but...
“Holding your hand, our hands are perfect matches.”
-->: Gah.. If there was no reason for you to come back for a long time, I'd go crazy.
Impossible! There'd always be a reason for me to come back. You! xD
Hehe.
Post 29.
Today was a good day.
Last night, I didn’t want to do anything because I didn’t want to go to school. I didn’t do any homework. Hehe. But then in the morning my dad woke me up to tell me to get ready to go to school. I felt horrible and asked him if I can stay home. Plan succeeded. Hell yeah. Missed most of my day for an amazing cause. I am now licensed to drive vehicles....
Post 28.
Life has been beautiful.
Normally things that would get me enraged and depressed aren’t even enough to break my smile. My days have been nothing but pure happiness and stress. A bad combination, but the happiness overwhelms my stress oh so dearly. I love how you won’t let me bash myself down and you always make me smile. Gah!
What should be considered as a negative is that I...
Hi, my name is: Kristian Pham.
Never in my life have I been: So happy.
The one person who can drive me nuts is: Stupid People.
High school: Is amazing.
When I’m nervous: I have tunnel vision.
The last song I listened to was: The Spongebob Theme Song.
If I were to get married right now my maid of Honor: Eh. My hair is: Black. When I was 5: I used to be so carefree. Last Christmas: I got...
This kid.
[23:08] —>: You busy? [23:08] <—: only a little [23:08] <—: but gah [23:08] <—: i wanna talk to you XP
Post 27.
Ahh, what a weekend.
I got to sleepover at Andrew’s house this weekend. That’s a first. I’ve been kind of pushing it with my parents to let me out of the house to hang out with my friends, but I guess I can finally get off their backs about it. Kinda felt bad about lying to them a couple of times.
We stayed up until 2ish.. I stayed up until 2 ish. They were still all playing...
