October 2010
I'm surprised.
I’m surprised Aida is coming together.
I’m surprised how I’m immune to the workload already.
I’m surprised how my grades are worse than last year’s, but my GPA is higher.
I’m surprised that Hermann would actually say my term oral sucked that bad.
I’m surprised that Mr. Brown would actually pull the plug on an experiment.
I’m surprised that...
Taylor Mc..Allister.
I know I spelled it wrong. I’m sorry.
But it’s that I’m fucking tired of trying. I’m tired of how other people aren’t even considerate enough to put other people’s thought into perspective. It bugs me so much.
Or when I’m obviously not okay, they just go to a damn party.
fatiguedwhale asked: LOL I totally do that. x] Like just go into a store with no money, try on a bunch of stuff in the dressing room, then leave like an hour later.. heheh
I'm down for shopping.
I'm down for shopping.
Enraged.
Heart beating loudly. Ears ringing. Clenched fists. Strange feeling in my gut. Teeth grinding.
The word hate comes to mind so much. The urge for me to smash my knuckles into something is consuming me. My confined area is discouraging me to scream, yell, belt.
I. Can’t. Fucking. Deal. With. This.
I try too hard and getting nothing out of it. I'm...
Pokemon: The Later Years
tinapenguin:
fuckyeahpokememe:
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lmfao
When
I follow more than who’s following me, I feel pathetic.
I add someone on Facebook, Myspace, or Tumblr, I feel pathetic.
I have more texts sent than received, I feel pathetic.
I’m always the first one to give in after an argument, I feel pathetic
I hear a compliment, I can’t help but smile.
When I get a paper back with a good grade, I can’t help but smile.
When...
Sometimes,
I wonder. After every argument, after every attempt I have to try to get someone to just realize what they’re doing, it’d be hopeless.
I thought people can learn. Oh how wrong I am. If things remain the same for me, then shit, I’ll change.
If my opinion, if my thought does not reach you, if the fact that you’re painfully making me deal with this isn’t getting to...
When I'm down
I have
Kid Cudi - Up, Up, And Away
Neyo - All Day Long; So You Can Cry
Passion Pit - Sleepyhead
Corinne Bailey Rae - Another Rainy Day
Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby
Auburn - Perfect Two
Lady Gaga - Summerboy; Beautiful, Dirty, Rich; The Fame; Bad Romance; Eh Eh (Nothing Else I Can Say) (Kinda Embarrassing..)
Kylie Minogue - All I See
Gabe Bondoc - Chasing Pavements; Part Of Your World;...
Psyched for Fall Rally.
Kelcie knows how to psyche people up.
Today,
I liked Aida.
I honestly didn’t like the song. After listening to it. After doing it in sectionals with the tenors. After listening to Seokho play it hecka times.
But when we sang it as a class today, regardless of how disgusting it sounded, which it actually wasn’t too bad, I felt the beauty of the piece. It made me appreciate the Finale of Aida. It reminded how much I love choir,...
Anonymous asked: You don't have to post this, but honestly. A lot of my days are spent wishing I was you, or really good friends with you. I always thought you were the coolest guy ever, among others, and that you were also one of the funniest people I'd ever meet. When you're around, I have fun. And don't even doubt that you're smart or will make it through Junior year with good grades-...
Anonymous asked: It makes me sad to see how much you hate your life. If there was any way I could help, I would. But it's not a one cure kind of thing, I'm sure. But think of the future! It will be awesome, that I'm also sure of. That's all I can offer right now, but I hope it helps at least a little. Maybe pointing out that you are a sharp dresser and smart cookie helps as well? I'm not...
I kinda admit.
In all honesty, I do hate my life.
A lot of people tell me that life is a very precious gift and I shouldn’t take advantage of it and I should just focus on the positive of each of my day.
I go through my day, I wake up wanting to stay in bed and go back to sleep just because it’s just so gosh darn comfortable. I go to Biotech, I do lab work that I probably will never get noticed...
Everyone
That sent me a text at 12 on Saturday night and who sent me that message and anyone else,
You guys are awesome.
I'm Kristian Pham,
I admit, I’m:
Suicidal
Gay
A misanthropist
Hypocrite
Depressed
Words that will stick with me forever.
“I hate u! I hate u so much! Go live ur depressing life. “
Nothing.
Nothing in my life is going right, at all. For three months I’ve been dealing with suicidal thoughts, and they were as serious as things get.
Someone once told me “Suicide isn’t serious when someone talks about committing it, but when they don’t tell anyone, it’s serious.” But now that I actually lost all care about what people care about me, we know it’s...
I feel like crying so much right now.
Nothing is going right. When I think something is about to lighten up, something else strikes down.
I’m destined to kill myself.
Lately, my thoughts and actions haven't been in...
You know..
I care about everything every person does.
It’s better off if I don’t show that I care when you drink, or smoke, or throw your precious life away. We only get one life, but it gets ruined because some people aren’t happy enough with a functioning body.
It’s better off If I don’t show I care at all. It’s better off I don’t show that I care that...
I wish..
I can go back to kindergarden. No one cared for their clothing, their hair, their looks. Everyone was the same and everyone loved eachother. Racial comments were something to laugh at because we had no idea it was a bad thing.
We had math homework that was 2+2 and it showed a picture of four apples. We always wrote like apes holding the crayon wrong and pressing really hard. Where we cried over...
One song,
That will always be with me forever and ever because of it’s beauty.
i carry your heart with me - Z. Randall Stroope.
Time to stop hoping, and get to reality.
Everytime.
Everytime, I have something on my mind, I go onto another tumblr account and just write down my feelings. What I hate, who I admire, what I’m thinking..
I made a mistake, the biggest mistake of my life. I’m an idiot and I don’t even know what to do anymore. I sit here hoping things will turn out right, just waiting. If I can change anything about myself is that I never let my...
It's actually over.
Hate is a strong word. Swear words are able to cut deep. Neglectful actions are more noticed.
Never have I done any of these towards you. But you’re able to do all of these to me so effortlessly, without any hesitation.
I don’t regret ever having such a beautiful thing. I regret ending it, but everyday I did have you, what difference would it make if I didn’t have you?
From...
Sloth. Seven things I neglect to do.
1. This survey.
2. Homework, who hasn’t said this yet?
3. Taking care of myself.
4. Unplugging my cell phone charger.
5. Reminding the people I love, that I do.. Love them.
6. Pay people back.
7. Thinking before I do.
Wrath. Seven things that piss me off.
1. Cocky bastards.
2. People who think they’re smart.
3. Close minded people.
4. People wearing clothing a size or more bigger than their regular size.
5. Expecting too much out of something/one.
6. Druggies.
7. Ugly people. (My philosophy: Everyone can do something about their looks, some just choose not to.)
Envy. Seven things I lack and covet.
1. Clear skin.
2. A good voice.
3. Money. Lots of it.
4. A Macbook.
5. I don’t care mindset.
6. More clothes.
7. The ability to make my own clothes.
No matter how many times someone says that they...
Pride. Seven great things about myself.
1. I have awesome hair.
2. I have awesome style.
3. I am boss at science.
4. I have straight teeth.
5. I get satisfactory grades.
6. I always have someone around me.
7. I don’t deal with your shit.
One Confession
1. I am probably the most self centered, greedy, selfish person you will meet. When I put others in front of me, I always think of what I’m getting in return. When I try to help others out, I expect a favor out of them in return. When someone tells me “OMG! I owe you so much!” And I respond with “Noo! It’s okay. I was glad to help.” I lie. I am an easily hurt...
Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.
Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.
Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.
Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.
Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.
Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.
Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets.
Two Smileys That Describe My Life
1. =\
2. xD
